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I am releasing the warrior

Posted on by philipdodson

I am me and no one else is me. I am uniquely me. The only me has wanted to be me and show that ‘me’ to the world all my life. Well, I am not there yet, however, I believe I am me now and that is the reality for me. We always create and manifest our reality by what we feel and believe.

I have decided that it is time to be fucking ‘me’ and stop the exhausting process of stopping ‘me’ from being seen.

Why have I done that? Fear. The mind has dominated and is fear based unlike the real me which is love based from my heart. That is what is dominating now.

I have been fearful of offending others, fearful that no one will like the real me, fearful of being alone, fearful of not being loved, fearful of judgement, fearful of being told off, and fearful of the consequences…fearful of everything.

I am 55 and I am still fearful of being me, of speaking my truth, of worrying about others and I have had enough. It is fucking exhausting and is preventing the world from seeing my true soul and more importantly from me being me and all the joy and freedom that will give me.

My true essence, like all human souls, is love and when I show that and speak that from my heart the real me will be visible to the world. I am a warrior, a person who accepts what is but is not passive. Surrendering to what is and accepting all that is allows us peace within but we do not have to be passive and apathetic. We do not have to be a doormat and we do not have to be what others want us to be. That does not mean we have to be aggressive or confrontational either, we just have to be our true selves. When we are at peace within we can speak from the heart and we do not have to fear anything anymore.

I want to get off the fucking bus and stop going along with the crowd as that is what is fucking easy and comfortable. I am not a warrior in the normal sense of what we have been told to understand. I am not looking to go out and kill and be aggressive. I am looking to love, nurture, bring together, unite and protect what matters…to speak up without fear. I am looking to share my gift. I am choosing to be proud of being who I am, of being a man, of being a loving human. I want to be seen and understood for who I truly am and I want to see and understand others as they truly are.

I am the warrior who is brave enough to be vulnerable and to be brave enough to speak my truth, to set my boundaries, to be brave enough to face my biggest fears and see them as a gift to guide me on my path and to be brave enough to get off the bus.

Am I there? no. Will I always be perfectly truly me all the time? No, I won’t, I am a human, an emotional being, I will have feelings, I will have anger, I will have fear, I will have many things, and I will make choices that I will reflect on and see they weren’t what reflected the true me.

All I am saying is that I want to go on the journey to being me, to be more awake, to be more conscious, to choose love first, being first and not waiting, I want to use fear as my guide and not my inhibitor.

I am exhausted with taking everything that others and my mind say seriously, I am tired of having an opinion on everything based on fucking nothing other than my mind and its ego. I am tired of holding back my voice and not respecting myself. I am exhausted from analysing everything.

For those who may feel uncomfortable, I understand and for those who want to move on, I understand that too. I know that when I am true to my values, to my heart, to love and the real me that I will attract my people to my life and that is what I want. I will attract people who see me as I am and who love me without conditions. That is what love is, it comes from the heart and is without condition. It is our default.

I am here as this current carnation just once, I do not want to spend any more of that not being me. I am releasing my warrior spirit and I am saying to myself each day “take off those fucking shackles and show up as me”. It’s tough. But that’s OK.

Is it going to be easy? NO. Is there anything in life that matters that is easy or that is without sacrifice? No. We are here for a purpose and that purpose is to experience and to be truly who we are without the suffering of denying ourselves that. To share that.

I am releasing my warrior spirit, choosing to love myself fully and to be me…it feels truly fucking amazing!

Male toxicity and what is wrong with that phrase

Posted on by philipdodson

I am proud of being a man, and I am not going to apologise for that, I am proud of my gender and I am proud to be a warrior (not a war-maker), a carer, and a nurturer. I am proud of who I am.

I will and always have, stood up for women, as I would stand up for any human soul regardless of their gender. It is not about equality, it is about balance and recognising and celebrating the differences between genders and not trying to make one the other. 

Women have a strong and powerful role to play as do men and we are similar and amazingly different too. That is neither a good nor bad thing, it simply is, and we do neither any good by trying to make them the same or judging each other. We can choose to recognise and support each other, celebrate our differences and seek to understand.

If we want change, we have to seek to understand the other first and we have to be the example. Men will not become different by being attacked, labelled judged, shamed and ostracised. Men do not have to become women, they do not have to start hating themselves and become apologists for others’ choices. 

If we all treat others with respect, empathy, compassion, love, kindness and understanding, then we will receive that in return. If we seek to do the right things, regardless of gender or any other difference between us and another human soul, then the human race becomes one and changes and inspires others without the need to criticise. 

For example, I have been a vegan and it just didn’t work for me personally. I now only eat animal products in a very limited amount and from ethical/responsible sources in a way that respects us, nature, and not in a harmful disrespectful way. I am not going to be motivated or anyone else by a vegan person judging my choices in a hateful and aggressive way labelling me as a ‘murderer’. 

Equally, as a respecter of women, a person who believes in everyone being treated with respect, as a person who stands up for women, and has always treated women respectfully, I am not happy with phrases such as ‘male toxicity’ as I would not be happy with the phrase ‘female toxicity’. 

These are judgemental, shaming and disrespectful phrases that actually only lead to the opposite of what the users of them perceive will be the response. These judgemental phrases are fear and anger based and are a way of lashing out in a critical, judgemental and unfounded way.

Respect others, accept others and treat people as the amazing human souls each and every one of us is. What can go wrong with that? Celebrate our differences, and be grateful that we are not all the same. 

Equally, be proud of who and what you are and do not allow others to tell you what you need to think, say or do. We all make wrong individual choices at the time, and we all act at the level of consciousness that we are at right now, we can’t act any other way. That does not excuse a poor individual choice, however, it does not give others the right to label and condemn us for that choice.

Let those who have not sinned cast the first stone or in another way, people who live in glass houses should not throw stones.

We are all the one life and each one of us has our unique gifts and journey to experience. Let’s all move on from judgement and celebrate each other and support each other unconditionally.