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Speaking my truth

Posted on by philipdodson

It’s been nearly a month since I posted a blog, I came back to my blogging earlier this year after a break, I had blogged every single day for over 6 years, then felt that my writing had got stuck so I stopped. So I took a break to freshen up and came back. However, I realised that I was still holding something back. I stopped again in early August, I’d lost my way with it all.

My writing was reflecting my mind state and not coming from my heart, that is where our true essence comes from, the soul and our heart and not from the mind.

Without realising it, my mind was sabotaging me writing from my heart and saying my truth.

This is the thing that we all suffer from, learning how to free ourselves to say our truth to ourselves first and then to the world. We hold back, we are fearful of it within and we fear others’ reactions to it.

Our soul wants us to always speak our truth and to be open-hearted and the mind fears this so, if we allow it, the mind stops us.

We all want to be seen and to be understood and we want the world to hear our truth.

The knowing within us that we are not speaking our truth and that we are holding back brings us great suffering and brings challenges to us. We can not be at peace and truly 100% love ourselves if we do not learn to speak our truth.

We are not here to be liked, we are here to be our true selves and to speak openly our true feelings from our hearts. When we do, we free ourselves and we attract to our lives the right tribe of people who accept us for who we are, they will love us unconditionally and will allow us to be seen, listened to and understood.

Finding our truth is a challenge initially as we have to be prepared to peel back the layers of the onion that we have put up around ourselves to protect us. We have built a shield around our true selves and hidden from the world. We have to be brave enough to bare our soul and to reveal our true self, we have to take off the layers. This is fucking hard and we are conditioned not to.

When we finally speak the truth from our hearts our relationships change with friends, partners, and everyone. Those who want to be around our truth will grow more connected to us and those who don’t will fade or run away.

Speaking from the heart comes without agenda and comes from love. When we speak from the mind it comes from a place of judgement, evaluation and has an agenda.

I am committing to going on a journey to speak my truth, speak from my heart and free myself. It’s going to be tough. It means sticking my hand into the fire.

I am increasingly becoming less knowledgeable

Posted on by philipdodson

I know nothing.

I have for most of my life thought it was important to know everything and even if you didn’t really have the first fucking clue about something, pretend that you knew and have an opinion, based usually on our own prejudices or what others say, who also had no fucking clue either.

Groups of people have great debates on subjects whereby none of them has a fucking clue and they make what they think are the right decisions based on that.

The only thing we know is ourselves and the things that we actually experience and even then, when we are in our unconscious mind-obsessed state, we only see what our mind wants us to see. In this moment now is the only thing we really know, when we are awake and conscious, seeing the world without any evaluation.

We do not have to have an opinion, we do not have to know and it is better to listen than to know.

The more we listen, the more we understand.

Inner peace, joy and a conscious existence, just being our authentic soulful true essence, comes from the freedom of knowing nothing, not evaluating everything. Knowledge is a burden because what we think is knowledge is most often thought and opinion within our own heads or from the collective mind.

Knowledge creates this false righteousness, as we believe our knowledge to be the absolute truth that our egos will force us to defend at all costs.

The opposite where listening, understanding and not knowing everything creates connection, respect, freedom and the liberation from the pressure of having to know and having to defend that knowledge.

I am increasingly becoming less knowledgeable.