Back again

Back here again, it’s been a while.

I had been blogging religiously, daily, for many years and then lost the habit. I tried a few times to rekindle the habit but with limited success. I thought I was ready to start again each time, but I wasn’t.

I’ve slowly been learning that it is totally OK. I am still worthy…really I am!

We are conditioned to believe that we always have to be doing something, achieving something and constantly busy. It is where we get our recognition from and our fragile ego craves it. If we are not achieving we believe we are a failure.

Our primary purpose is to simply ‘be’ and be in this moment now, to be conscious. Then we could choose to manifest other purposes and our soul will guide us to what they are. However, if all we do for our entire existence is to just be, then that is it.

So ‘back again’ in itself is irrelevant, I have never left. It is only my ego that needs to blog daily and achieve something. My soul just wants to share my gif with the world out of love.

The person we think we are is always vulnerable, the person we truly are is never vulnerable.

We can either think and suffer and be trapped within our thoughts or simply be and be at peace. We cannot do both.

Rebuilding

Rebuilding habits.

Here I am, doing my blog…three days in a row now!!

So what!!

Well, I blogged every single day for 6+ years and then lost the habit.

I’m trying to start it again. Habits are like driving your car. All the effort and fuel is used getting the car from a standstill to a steady speed. Once you reach a steady speed, especially on the open road, then the momentum carries the car along without the need for too much more fuel and energy.

It’s the same with any habit, getting started and building momentum is the hard part.

It’s doubly hard when you stop something after so long to get that started again.

You feel like you have been there and done it.

There is something for me to learn here. Try, if possible, to not stop a good thing once you have it going.

Of course, there are times when we need a break from our routines, some time to freshen up and come back with more energy. That’s what I needed.

However, the longer we leave something, the harder it is to restart. As the amount thinking time increases so does the level of inertia.

Let’s see how it goes…3 days is a start. So I am happy.