Yahtzee and an aha! moment that changes everything

As a family, we love playing Yahtzee, which for those who are not familiar with it, it is a simple dice game with 5 dice, you get 3 rolls to achieve certain set things like as many 1’s, 2’s, 3’s, 4’s, 5’s and 6’s as you can, 3 of a kind, 4 of a kind, a full house (3 of one number and 2 of another), a high and low straight (1,2,3,4 and 5 or 2,3,4,5 and 6), and Yahtzee the ultimate score with 50 points is 5 of the same number and then there is a ‘chance’ where if you mess up aiming to get one of the set things you can just add the total of the dice at the end of your 3 rolls.

We’ve been playing it almost every day recently and we all love it.

I had an ‘aha’ moment yesterday after playing it. I noticed that in games, especially Yahtzee but also most other games, I am very decisive and I instinctively know what I want to do. I do not hesitate when playing Yahtzee…I might roll as my first role of the 5 dice a 6,5,3,2 and 2. I immediately know to go for my low straight 2,3,4,5 or 3,4,5,6 or I sense to go for Yahtzee with 2’s I only need 3 more 2’s from another 2 rolls. I just immediately do what I feel. Now, of course, I do not always get it right, but I say ‘no worries, it’s just a game, I get another turn in a minute and it’s always OK because I can play another game’.

I am good at playing games as I risk everything and as I said it does not always work, but it works more often than not, I am confident and I believe I am good at it and therefore, I am and I win quite often.

As I laid in bed thinking about this, I realised that life is a game of Yahtzee. Every moment we get to start a new game if we choose, it doesn’t matter what I rolled last time, just go again and again. Follow your instinct, your feeling, the intuition from your soul and do it. Do not fear what dice to roll in life, just roll them and see what comes up. If the dice aren’t what you want roll again. We can always start again from any situation and the more we roll the better we get at knowing what works and doesn’t.

What happens in life is I think, I hesitate, I analyse, I think about all the options and the what ifs. Instead, I can use my intuition from my soul and just roll. I can change on the next roll if the outcome doesn’t give me the right dice and then go again. I can start a new game and learn from the choices I made last time, I can enjoy the rolling of the dice too, as I am not fearful of the outcome.

I am now going to play Yahtzee every day in my life. Of course, it will, like any game, take practice and the belief that you can do it, but that is what life is, a fun game to be played and to learn as we play. Of course, I’ll make bad choices, and need to start a new game as I will run out of rolls for that game. It will be a challenge because I’ll have to overcome my mind and I’ll have to deal with my fears.

Mistakes are only mistakes if we do not learn from them, and even then, we have a lifetime to eventually get the lesson and apply it and maybe we won’t learn, but hey that’s OK too.

Play Yahtzee…it’s great fun and it could change your life.

What we believe matters and what actually matters are hugely different

My mind has on average 60,000 thoughts a day and it wants me to take all of them seriously. It’s exhausting when I become engaged with my mindstreams, they drag me along and they are not creative, they are negative and assumption based, in fact, based on absolutely nothing other than its ramblings and the stories that it has created about me. All of them false. However, I choose to create them, believe them, and magnify them by adding to them constantly.

The mind patterns are repetitive and have been built up over a lifetime of falsehoods that I have chosen to believe about myself either created myself from negative thoughts or fueled by me believing what I think others think about me. This again is based on nothing other than my mind’s ramblings or something that another person’s mind has blurted out unconsciously and my mind has chosen to take seriously.

All these things we do to ourselves. None of it is done by others.

How do I change this?

I change it by realising that all these thoughts are just that, thoughts. Thoughts are temporary mental formations that will always be there and come constantly. The realisation many years ago that I am the observer of those thoughts and not those thoughts, I am the consciousness that is the witness of them and therefore I am not my mind and its thoughts. Of course, my mind is a part of me, like my ear or finger. But I am not the thoughts.

Once you realise that there is only one me, the soul, the ball of energy that my body faithfully takes on its journey, then you realise that none of these thoughts and stories matter. It only matters to be, as in to be my true essence, soul, and spirit and to live a life true to that in this moment creating experiences and sharing the gift that is uniquely mine.

I no longer want to be shackled by my thoughts and stories. I know what my gift is and my purpose and I want to be that, not my mind and its stories. Once I stop energising all those thoughts and stories my mind has space to help me manifest that gift and share it with the world.

My mind, like all of us, is the most amazing gift and the most amazing creative tool, that is what is there for, to help us, our true essence, soul, and being to manifest our gift for us and others.

Every one of us has a gift and our purpose is to discover it and give it to the world.

Am I 100% my true essence every day? Absolutely not, but I am on the path to achieving that. Will I achieve it in this lifetime? Maybe not, who knows, as the future does not exist beyond the ramblings of my mind. It doesn’t matter either, I’ll come back and continue the journey.

All that matters is this moment now, the eternal present moment where all life and experience exist. When we experience anything it is always now. If we stay in this ‘now’ moment we move beyond our thought and by simply being we are able to manifest our gift and create what we truly desire to create and experience.

That’s what matters not thousands of thoughts.