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Why did I stop writing?

Posted on by philipdodson

I used to blog every single day for literally 6 years or more. Then in March this year, after a few months of struggling to write every day, I stopped completely. It’s been a long time now since I have blogged, the longest break in all my years of writing.

Why did I stop writing?

I told myself nonsense. I listened to the mind and all its sabotage. I choose to allow myself to believe the stories that I have been making up all my life. I said ‘What’s the point?’ and stuff like ‘it’s rubbish’ and ‘no one cares’.

To be honest, it doesn’t matter if nobody cares or it’s ‘rubbish’ as I realised a long time ago, I am actually writing for myself and if someone else benefits too, then great, but if not it really does not matter. I lost sight of that and my ego and mind became active again.

I started to listen and analyse everything which was present not just in my writing but also in my life. I had slipped heavily back into my unconscious mind and all its repeating mind streams.

I had slipped back to moaning, judging, complaining, and the stories of ‘poor little me’. All of this only leads to suffering and we seem to be completely OK with inflicting this upon ourselves on a daily basis.

Have I gone back to just being and floating on my cloud like Buddha? No…I was not there before. What’s different now is I am not kidding myself that I am there. When we create this persona that we are ‘spiritual’ or ‘enlightened’ or ‘transformed’ we are exactly not that and we have just replaced one self-image with another in our unconsciousness.

What I am now is free of the burden of pretending to be something I am not and that feels great and that’s why I am writing again.

What the ‘F’ to write about today?

Posted on by philipdodson

What to blog about today?

Well, I could do another poem, although I do not feel that at the moment, so what else to write about? I’ve got to think! Think! Think! I’m stuck. I can’t write.

Well, we always think that we struggle to write something, yet we never struggle with something to say, therefore, we can just speak and write that down. There is no such thing as writer’s block unless we want to believe there is.

Write in plain speaking, and do not overcomplicate, that is why we get writer’s block because we are focussed on an outcome and not focussed on just putting the first word down and then the next and next and so on. It may not be brilliant and win The Booker Prize, but who cares? The more we just write the better we will become, but there is always something to say, as we speak often without thinking, so we just speak. Well, we can just write and write and write, we can always go back and edit it, and we can always get even better next time. However, it is the starting that is the obstacle that thought creates.

The blockage to everything is because we enter the psychological time-bound dimension of the future and we think about the outcome, which is always in the future and not now, so we can not deal with it, we just think about it and create a psychological fear about the outcome…always negative thought and self-criticism. Instead, we can just start writing on the paper, and if you prefer, we can just type on a keyboard.

Writing on paper is better as it is physically creating something and involves a human touch which is nourishing for the soul and that actually helps us write better. We are more mindful and conscious when we are not in the digital dimension.

OK…let’s edit, and publish!