What happens when we tell ourselves the wrong story?

All of our lives we tell ourselves stories internally based on what we think or what others think about us, even though in the case of others we do not actually know what they think unless they tell us. We take what others say about us or do to us and then we create stories in our heads as to what we are, who we are, what we are like, what we are good at and most often, what we are not good at. We create these lenses of self-judgement and create whole stories based on them.

The common thing about these stories is that they are not true, they are based on the temporary mental creation of others and our own minds, with absolutely no substance to them whatsoever.

From these stories, we then create a self-image about ourselves and then we think, believe and act based on them. Total insanity.

Even more insane, we do this all our lives if we do not wake up to the fact that they are utter nonsense. 

We are what we believe we are and therefore, we have the choice as to what story we are going to tell ourselves and what we choose to take from others. It does not matter what others think we are or say we are, it does not matter what happened before, it is just the past, simply that and no longer relevant.

We are what we believe ourselves to be right now this moment and when we are conscious and awake, we are alive in this moment now. There is no need for any stories then or roles to act out. We are simply being, being our truer authentic self, which comes from our soul and is not something that comes from the mind or the views of others.

When we tell ourselves the wrong story, we live an unreal, false life, trapped within our minds and the minds of others. We live an inauthentic life and we suffer from not being.

I am increasingly becoming less knowledgeable

I know nothing.

I have for most of my life thought it was important to know everything and even if you didn’t really have the first fucking clue about something, pretend that you knew and have an opinion, based usually on our own prejudices or what others say, who also had no fucking clue either.

Groups of people have great debates on subjects whereby none of them has a fucking clue and they make what they think are the right decisions based on that.

The only thing we know is ourselves and the things that we actually experience and even then, when we are in our unconscious mind-obsessed state, we only see what our mind wants us to see. In this moment now is the only thing we really know, when we are awake and conscious, seeing the world without any evaluation.

We do not have to have an opinion, we do not have to know and it is better to listen than to know.

The more we listen, the more we understand.

Inner peace, joy and a conscious existence, just being our authentic soulful true essence, comes from the freedom of knowing nothing, not evaluating everything. Knowledge is a burden because what we think is knowledge is most often thought and opinion within our own heads or from the collective mind.

Knowledge creates this false righteousness, as we believe our knowledge to be the absolute truth that our egos will force us to defend at all costs.

The opposite where listening, understanding and not knowing everything creates connection, respect, freedom and the liberation from the pressure of having to know and having to defend that knowledge.

I am increasingly becoming less knowledgeable.