Tag: sabotage

Trying is the mind

Posted on by philipdodson

When we try that is the mind and when we do it comes from the soul.

We are all creators of some kind, that is what we are here for beyond the primary purpose of simply being. We are here to create experiences.

However, when we try, the thinking mind takes over, and the ego is consumed by the outcome and all the fears connected to the fantasy that is the future.

When the mind is thinking it sabotages, manipulates and over-engineers. We will never create when we are caught up in our mindstreams of uncertainty and projections.

When we allow the creative flow of the universe to flow through our heart and soul, it manifests the ‘doing’ in this moment now. It is not blocked by thought, it just flows. When we are simply focused on doing without thought, our best creations simply flow.

Ignore the outcome. Just start doing and enjoy the process of doing.

Why did I stop writing?

Posted on by philipdodson

I used to blog every single day for literally 6 years or more. Then in March this year, after a few months of struggling to write every day, I stopped completely. It’s been a long time now since I have blogged, the longest break in all my years of writing.

Why did I stop writing?

I told myself nonsense. I listened to the mind and all its sabotage. I choose to allow myself to believe the stories that I have been making up all my life. I said ‘What’s the point?’ and stuff like ‘it’s rubbish’ and ‘no one cares’.

To be honest, it doesn’t matter if nobody cares or it’s ‘rubbish’ as I realised a long time ago, I am actually writing for myself and if someone else benefits too, then great, but if not it really does not matter. I lost sight of that and my ego and mind became active again.

I started to listen and analyse everything which was present not just in my writing but also in my life. I had slipped heavily back into my unconscious mind and all its repeating mind streams.

I had slipped back to moaning, judging, complaining, and the stories of ‘poor little me’. All of this only leads to suffering and we seem to be completely OK with inflicting this upon ourselves on a daily basis.

Have I gone back to just being and floating on my cloud like Buddha? No…I was not there before. What’s different now is I am not kidding myself that I am there. When we create this persona that we are ‘spiritual’ or ‘enlightened’ or ‘transformed’ we are exactly not that and we have just replaced one self-image with another in our unconsciousness.

What I am now is free of the burden of pretending to be something I am not and that feels great and that’s why I am writing again.