No matter how much we think we are something, the reality is we are not.
This works both ways, we can think that we are doing everything wrong or we can think that we are perfect. We are neither. We have a self-image that our minds create, we are not that image.
Patience is the key to it all when you are trying to expand and grow as a person, it takes a long while to unlearn the conditioning of a lifetime and the habits we have formed around it. It takes time to stop being the reaction, to stop the mindstream, to stay present.
If we stay in the moment, being patient with ourselves, even when things are challenging in our environment, then all of the mind chatter that brings us the suffering will dissolve.
Peace is always in the now, but be kind, it will come.
The repeating patterns of thought, the ones that we have had thousands of times before, are there all the time in the background.
They are so normal that we do not notice them. It is like static or white noise, playing 24/7.
These thoughts are not constructive, positive or new.
To find them we need to bring awareness and consciousness to ourselves. It is a bit like shining a light into a dark cave, these thoughts hide deep in the cave, deep in our unconsciousness.
If we remain in the moment, present, conscious, and awake, then the light shines on them, once we see them we can then choose to change them, to stop them. Once the light is shined on them they can not survive.
Consciousness is achieved when we allow our thoughts to be, simply witnessing them and not responding so as to not energise them. If we focus on the beauty around us, the noise, the light, the smells, the sounds, our own breathing and inner energy, then we can take that light into the cave and find those deep unconscious thoughts.