The dark hole within

The dark hole inside us all gets bigger and bigger when we allow our mind and its repetitive thought patterns to dominate us. It overshadows any lightness and dominates.

We are not our minds, yet most of us spend our so-called ‘waking hours’ trapped within the mind in an unconscious state, where we are barely aware of anything outside of our head. We can even be driving a car to work and then find our surprised that we’ve arrived and not even sure if we looked at the last junction. We do not see, hear or sense anything and if we do it is only through the filters of our mind and self-created image of ourselves and of others.

We are born full of light and energy, with as yet an undeveloped mind and ego. Gradually this develops, and we start to create the little story(ies) inside the head and it takes over. Thought dominates and we easily become them, especially as this is seen as ‘normal’.

The mind starts to have darker thoughts and this dampens the light of our soul and very essence. We end up with a ‘dark hole’ inside.

The only way to reverse this, and it can be done immediately, is to realise we are not our mind and its thoughts, we are the true essence that is our soul and when we start to detach ourselves from the thoughts, then the light starts to shine and we become conscious. It simply requires us to witness thought, become the observer rather than energise it. It is like watching clouds float past on a park bench.

It is something that takes time to get better at, but slowly but surely the light comes and the darkness subsides. We step away from the past and future and spend our life awake in this current moment. We stop thinking about our lives and we actually become life in the now that is the only time that our life actually unfolds. The rest is simply within our mind.

The change is a real challenge, it requires sacrifice and bravery to step away from our ego and just be, be our true selves. The reward is the fulfilment, joy and the light that fills our dark hole within.

Does the writing run dry?

After 1,986 days of blogging continuously without a break…does the writing run dry?

Well, yes, sometimes it comes instantly and other days I sit and ponder for a while.

The thing is I now do this for myself, I do this because it brings me joy in the moment I write it. Before the ego drove me on, I am the next ‘Seth Godin’ who has been blogging every day for about 15 years!! It was about my mind’s inner stories, the roles I had to fulfil.

In a strange way, I am talking to myself, except out loud to the world, well the people who read it.

At the end of the day, it really doesn’t matter what we write or do, it is all personal and as long as it brings us joy now, then that’s it.

Complexity is of the mind and its sabotage to reduce any risk and simplicity and just being is of the soul that just wants to experience now, this moment.