The dark hole within

The dark hole inside us all gets bigger and bigger when we allow our mind and its repetitive thought patterns to dominate us. It overshadows any lightness and dominates.

We are not our minds, yet most of us spend our so-called ‘waking hours’ trapped within the mind in an unconscious state, where we are barely aware of anything outside of our head. We can even be driving a car to work and then find our surprised that we’ve arrived and not even sure if we looked at the last junction. We do not see, hear or sense anything and if we do it is only through the filters of our mind and self-created image of ourselves and of others.

We are born full of light and energy, with as yet an undeveloped mind and ego. Gradually this develops, and we start to create the little story(ies) inside the head and it takes over. Thought dominates and we easily become them, especially as this is seen as ‘normal’.

The mind starts to have darker thoughts and this dampens the light of our soul and very essence. We end up with a ‘dark hole’ inside.

The only way to reverse this, and it can be done immediately, is to realise we are not our mind and its thoughts, we are the true essence that is our soul and when we start to detach ourselves from the thoughts, then the light starts to shine and we become conscious. It simply requires us to witness thought, become the observer rather than energise it. It is like watching clouds float past on a park bench.

It is something that takes time to get better at, but slowly but surely the light comes and the darkness subsides. We step away from the past and future and spend our life awake in this current moment. We stop thinking about our lives and we actually become life in the now that is the only time that our life actually unfolds. The rest is simply within our mind.

The change is a real challenge, it requires sacrifice and bravery to step away from our ego and just be, be our true selves. The reward is the fulfilment, joy and the light that fills our dark hole within.

Inner resistance

The strict tough voice that we use on ourselves in our mind…that voice of authority, we all do it.

Does it ever get us to change?

Maybe, it is just me, but it never works, it has the opposite effect. It is like the external world, where we resist something, it makes it stronger and the opposite to what we fight for occurs.

Inner resistance is the same. The insanity of our mind and its never-ending and conflicting dialogue causes pain and turmoil within.

When we tell ourselves off, it has the opposite effect.

If we accept that we did or didn’t do something that affected the ego and the story of ‘little me’ and accept that it has already taken place and focus on now and doing something now, then we do not need the mind and its telling off.

The internal struggle always has a negative effect and it is when we accept where we are right now and whatever is, simply is, and cannot be changed so don’t fight it.

Always the energy focused on doing something or not doing something, as that is a choice too, right now is positive, as it is the only moment we can do or alter anything.

Resisting others or ourselves is pointless, let go, accept and be at peace.