Happy blogging

Staring at the blank screen used to make me anxious…that’s what I have been doing for the last 10 minutes, well I did it for a few minutes and then grabbed my crossword book and finished a crossword that had been there for a week incomplete.

However, after 1,910 continuous blogs, so 5 1/4 years of not missing a day, I no longer fear it. Of course, there is my ego…otherwise I wouldn’t have mentioned how many days I’ve written in a row!!! The ego says ‘have to keep going’. But I know that if I wait a while, then there is always something to say, even if it is just a few words or many. Often the fewer words say a great deal more. I no longer feel the pressure, and if I did miss a day, who cares. It really doesn’t matter.

I used to write a daily journal too on 750words.com but I stopped that daily ritual after 4+ year of continuous daily entries, because firstly I realised it was my ego that was keeping me going, so I could brag to others just how dedicated I was. Secondly, it became an extension of the turmoil of my mind, so actually, it was serving no purpose at all.

Now, I’m not staring at a blank screen because I’ve written this post.

Happy blogging.

Flutter by

Drip, drip, drip
Slowly like a snail
Invisible like a wisp
It comes, step by step
We do not see it

It meanders and skips
It sneaks up on us
It catches us unaware
It hides and pounces
It’s stealthy

Once we notice it
It lights up
When we respond to it
It grows
And grows

It grabs us
It drags us along
It is like a magnet
And more come
They join in

Soon we are dragged along
Soon we are bumping around
Soon we are engulfed in them
Soon we are plunge into the dark
Soon we are feeling fear

We can’t seem to escape
The darkness comes
We are feeling anxious
We are feeling frightened
We have become them

And then we pause
There is a light
It first is faint
Then it’s stronger
The light grows

We feel the light’s energy
We feel it’s strength
We feel it’s love
We know it’s real
We awaken and free ourselves

We become the light
And we realise
That all there was in the dark
Was our mind, it’s fear
We were grabbed by its thoughts

Now we know the light
We can say goodbye
We can let those thoughts
Flutter by
We are free